..~LiFe'S w0nDeRfUl~..

i think i'm doraphobic.

2011-12-13T06:08:00.000+08:00

No, not Dora the Explorer.

So warm this weekend!

2011-10-07T03:37:00.002+08:00

I'M SO HAPPY ALREADY :)

it's only been a month

2011-10-06T06:18:00.000+08:00

i'm already thoroughly hosed.

IHTFP.
long weekend why do you seem so far away..

why this weekend so happening one

2011-09-14T06:38:00.001+08:00

aiyo my google calendar all filled up already.

asfghjklwertqw can't waitt o go back for IAP! <3

life

2011-09-13T07:28:00.002+08:00

is not so wonderful at the moment.

at least things can only get better from here.

Guess what virus I hate the most today.

2011-08-17T08:28:00.002+08:00

http://www.pdb.org/pdb/explore/explore.do?structureId=2GHW

The SARS virus. You're right. Not because it killed a s* ton of people in 2003.
But because the human antibody that is produced to neutralize the virus is not crystallized properly by the scientists/researchers who worked on it. Or maybe they did crystallize it well, but the antibody itself is not following the norm. Who knows. All I know / care about at this moment is that the abnormality in its chains is screwing up my otherwise perfect data.

sighs.

edit: Hah! Never mind. Hatred no more. Found a new way to interpret their data. Gah I hate it when they combine both VH and VL together in a single chain / when they crystallized it such that VH and VL get so close together that they fuse *coyin's hypothesis of course - i have no idea what actually happens during crystallization hahaha

rants

2011-08-16T05:51:00.000+08:00

fml i have been having this raging headache since this morning that i feel like im harry and voldemort is insanely mad. :( And i just discovered a typo in my codes. which means i might have to run them all over again. and it took me two freaking days to finish running all those codes. wtf.

at least. life will get better from here.

This is what my current workspace looks like

2011-08-12T02:16:00.000+08:00

I'm running five long-ass perl scripts that I wrote (They take about 6 hours to run for 60 files, and I have 669 files to work with, so I'm splitting them up into 14 scripts. I'm only running 5 scripts at the moment)

So while these 5 scripts are running, I'm learning ~~noob~~ super basic Python on the side in preparation for 6.01 this Fall.

Let's hope my MacBook Pro does not crash any time soon.

storytime!!!

2011-07-29T02:04:00.003+08:00

I was feeling a little down today (not mood down, but stomach-no-appetite-down) so I decided I should eat some good Malaysian food instead.

Yes. so I set up some boiling water in the pot, ran up the stairs for my FOOD TREASURE BOX(ES), yes I have two of those now thanks to my brother for bringing a suitcase of food over when he flew here last month, and thanks to mama for going grocery shopping for all those yummy food i have in my room, (Tuang commented that I was like his Grandma when I proudly showed him my two boxes of food, because he said his grandma used to keep food in boxes under her bed too. i told him I would take it as a compliment.) so i opened one box, took out a packet of instant BOH teh tarik (with my eyes closed yo. i knew exactly where it was.) and *mind debates for two seconds between the Korean Seafood noodles and good old Maggi curry noodles* decided to the take Maggi this time because I might not have the appetite to finish the Korean noodles. slammed the door and ran back downstairs back to my boiling pot of water. I wondered if Matt jumped when I slammed the door. Or maybe I didn't really slam it as hard as I thought I did. Oh did I mention I am living with 3 guys in the same room this summer? Long story. heh. One requested to room with me specifically. sketchy yo. (Zaid if you are reading this, i doubt you are. Maybe i should show you this post next time)

But the whole point of this post is:
Right when I put in that packet of Maggi curry noodles into the boiling pot of water (I LOVE this boiling pot of water, i really love it when water boils, I could feel their excitement of gaining enough energy to leave their liquid state and their homies behind. Darn victorious this feeling you know.), my mind screamed AHHH CRAP!!! IDIOT YOU STILL HAVE YOUR LEFTOVER ZHA JIANG MIAN FROM LAST NIGHT'S DINNER IN THE FRIDGE!!!!

but sighs. what to do. i already put in the noodles. and as much as i want to eat you zha jiang mian, i don't think i should waste my maggi. so here i am. eating yummmyyyyyy curry maggi noodles with TELUR. :D yum.

i should really stop writing here and get ready to go to work. but i'm too tempted to tell what happened to my teh tarik. I boiled water again (in the kettle this time), and made myself teh tarik. except I think now I should go get ice from the fridge and make a cup of Teh Tarik Ais instead.

Alright. gtg.
I'm also going jogging later this evening. wish me luck so I would actually go jogging this time. :D

edit: the maggi curry IS SO GOOD. I WANT TO FINISH EVERY BIT OF IT. dang IT'S SO YUMMY IM GONNA DAIYYYYYY

I CAN DO THIS

2011-07-19T02:57:00.002+08:00

PERSEVEREEEEEEEEEE.

hpcraze_02

2011-07-14T06:07:00.002+08:00

“Oh, it’s fine,” said Luna, sucking her finger in a dreamy fashion and looking Harry up and down. “You look smart. I told Daddy most people would probably wear dress robes, but he believes you ought to wear sun colors to a wedding, for luck, you know.”

As she drifted off after her father, Ron reappeared with an elderly witch clutching her arm. Her beaky nose, red-trimmed eyes, and feathery pink hat gave her the look of a bad-tempered flamingo.

“ . . . and you hair’s much too long, Ronald, for a moment I thought you were Ginevra. Merlin’s beard, what is Xenophilius Lovegood wearing? He looks like an omelet. And who are you?” she barked at Harry.

hpcraze_01

2011-07-14T04:23:00.000+08:00

Aunt Petunia burst into tears. Hestia Jones gave her an approving look that changed to outrage as Aunt Petunia ran forward and embraced Dudley rather than Harry.

“S–so sweet, Dudders . . . ” she sobbed into his massive chest.
“S–such a lovely b–boy . . . s–saying thank you . . . ”

“But he hasn’t said thank you at all!” said Hestia indignantly.
“He only said he didn’t think Harry was a waste of space!”

“Yeah, but coming from Dudley that’s like ‘I love you,’” said Harry, torn between annoyance and a desire to laugh as Aunt Petunia continued to clutch at Dudley as if he had just saved Harry from a burning building.

hahaha i love harry potter

MCCBCHST

2011-07-07T09:34:00.001+08:00

Why does it feel like the coolest thing ever :D

就凭摘星的手臂为地球每夜放烟花

2011-06-25T04:43:00.001+08:00

望向每双率真眼睛
似看到最动人风景

如所有错失都得到宽待
如计较会被换成慷慨
如纯良仍然能被记载
孤苦的得到理睬
这可算妙想天开

如所有苦衷都得到体谅
如占据会被换成分享
如捱穷仍然能被敬抑
挑剔的懂得赞赏
呼吸会更加清香

愿这世界如童话
抱着想象实现它
就凭摘星的手臂
为地球每夜放烟花

how did 林夕 write such pretty lyrics!

more MIT rambles

2011-05-16T22:09:00.000+08:00

wow ever since I officially declared Course 6, I have been receiving at least two emails per day about all kinds of Tech start-ups, internship openings with good pays, summer jobs at companies founded by MIT alumni, yadayada...... Connections dear, MIT oh dear.

Myleene Klass

2011-05-06T07:55:00.001+08:00

My Myleene Klass Station on Pandora has such beautiful piano music that I want to buy big huge Bose speakers/subwoofers and play them in my room in the dark while I lie on my bed looking at the ceiling and listening to them all day.

You know I write long a sentences when I am blogging to procrastinate. :)

I'm listening to Myleene Klass Radio (http://www.pandora.com/land/station/b491bda5b067194897cb49544d634820c29045a5cf801fa8?referrer=ocioyico)

:)

2011-05-05T10:04:00.004+08:00

because Spring is here. And summer too. And you. And everything else. :)

hello hi

2011-04-15T06:13:00.001+08:00

i want to go shopping so bad

i live in a double.

2011-04-13T10:05:00.000+08:00

10pm.
@ coyin and carolina's dorm room.

*brings laundry bag heading to the door* "I wonder if I should pset now or bake a cake."

"pset. why are you baking a cake!?"

"yeah maybe I'll pset now. But I want to bake a cake.. I'll bake a cake tomorrow."

"wait why do you want to bake a cake? you have been cooking, and baking ALL WEEK!!!"

"yeah. but I have so much free time!!!!!!"

".............."

*walks out of door*
-------------------------------

5 minutes later.

*walks into room* "Ah I feel like life is SO boring at the moment."

".............."
".......................Ah I feel like life is SO productive at the moment."

-----------------------------

End of conversation. My dear roommate and I. I'm trying to keep up with all the deadlines for the week and next week and working myself to bits (I have been on this desk for the past 7 hours pretty much besides dinner time) and I still have so much stuff to do. 5.12 midterm tomorrow.
gah I want this semester to be over. now.

<3

2011-04-06T19:05:00.001+08:00

GrubCycle

2011-04-06T01:43:00.002+08:00

The deadline for IDEAS is tonight! After this all will be over..............

ah not so. still have a couple more grants to apply for. but ah im happy :)

so much

2011-04-04T11:59:00.001+08:00

workkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

:( why.

blah INSANELY CRAZY schedule till 4.30pm March 30

2011-03-30T05:22:00.000+08:00

and VERY CRAZY schedule till 2am April 9

and PRETTY CRAZY schedule till 11.59pm April 15.

: (

HUMONGOUSY GIGANTIC BIG FROWN

kthxbai.

i finally had my Toscanini's that i had been craving for weeks.

2011-03-21T04:31:00.002+08:00

1/2 a scoop of Green Tea + Ginger
1/2 a scoop of Chocolate Hazelnut.

Sitting on a bench outdoors eating ice cream in the chilly Spring wind.
And talking about how MIT is like Hogwarts in a lot of ways.
and talking about life in general.
<3
i love my roommate.

it was snowing flurries

2011-03-15T06:12:00.002+08:00

and all i wanted to do was to eat a cup of cold mint chocolate chip ice cream. too bad i wasn't anywhere near Toscanini's.

Spring is really on its way!

2011-03-09T08:46:00.004+08:00

awesomeness.

Know another awesome thing?
PI DAY IS ALSO ON ITS WAY!

MIT Class of 2015! :D where are you?
Ah you'll find out on Pi Day (US Eastern Time), i.e. March 14, 2011. 9.26pm.
(Malaysian time: March 15, 2011. ~~10.26am.~~ 9.26AM(!!!!!), because i forgot about daylight saving time)

All the best to everyone who applied1 :)))
Don't be dejected if you are rejected or waitlisted - it simply means MIT is too competitive and you're just a little less lucky than others, and of course! It means there is a better school for you!

If you are admitted (and you are a Malaysian), EMAIL ME! I would love to hear from you, and to tell you how I felt exactly a year ago. I would also be glad to answer any questions you might have about MIT, or tell you what I am currently involved in being at MIT, or if you simply want to share the joy with someone, email me. :)

Ooops of course, if you did not receive an offer, you're more than welcome to email me as well just to rant/to complain/to release your anger/to send hate mail. I got rejected by five other schools when I applied last year, so I could be somewhat sympathetic. :)

p.s. search terms included (so when ~~creepy stalkerish~~ tech-savvy admits want to find out more about other admits, they'll reach this post :P): MIT, Massachusetts Institute of Technology, MIT Class of 2015, Malaysian MIT admits, international admits, admitted students for MIT, Pi day, aah I'm so excited about MIT. ;)

p.p.s. Guess I forgot to include my email address: coyin at mit dot edu
(if you're truly well-suited for MIT, you should be able to find it from MIT's people directory!)

p.p.p.s. All the best - I'll be as nervous as you are on Monday!

Edited:
I was reading this book called "Domestic trends in the United States, China, and Iran: implications for U.S. Navy strategic planning" on GoogleBooks when I realized I really, really, extremely miss the humanities. :\

I’d catch a grenade for ya

2011-03-07T10:29:00.002+08:00

Canon and the Economist do not go together.

2011-03-03T13:29:00.001+08:00

I discovered one of the most ironic things one could do.

Listening to George Winston's arrangement of Pachelbel's Canon in D on Pandora while reading "The world this week" in The Economist.

"The UN Security Council demanded an end to the violence."

"In Bahrain the royal family ordered harsh force to be used against the demonstrators, killing several."

"...a court sentenced Kibibi Mutware, a militia leader, to 20 years of prison for mass rape."

"Christchurch ... devastated by an earthquake and several aftershocks. Scores of people died and hundreds were missing in New Zealand's worst natural disaster for 80 years. ... the country's 'darkest day'."

"...and censors banned the word 'jasmine' from China's microblogs."

"Afghanistan suffered several suicide-bombings. The most lethal attack killed at least..."

"A recent exchange of fire around the Preah Vihear temple killed at least eight people."

"Caste will also be tallied..."

"The political strife in Libya caused oil prices to soar."

"There was more violence in the west African country [Cote d'Ivoire] this week."

World news are pretty depressing sometimes. :(

meh

2011-02-27T05:01:00.002+08:00

What a waste of time.

On a different note, I'm trying really hard to START acting like a pre-med.
There are too many Hermione Grangers around me, and yes. They. Scare. Me.

ALOT.

Spring

2011-02-17T15:06:00.000+08:00

........is almost here!
48 degrees tomorrow with only 7mph wind zomg.

Just finished my 18.06 pset, it's 2am and I'm feeling rather proud of myself because I didn't start on the pset till 10pm-ish and I managed to solve two of the questions I spent at least an hour memerah otak saya thinking so hard about just now. :-D

Not time to sleep yet unfortunately. :( I have SO. MANY. EMAILS. to reply and write. And resume formatting so I can send my resume out tonight. Or this morning I guess.

And prepare for the 9.30am D-lab class tomorrow morning.

All those UROP applications, summer plans, international development projects, ECA stuff, HASS, recommendation letters and other tiny things like MF, TFM, interviews, camps, etc are almost driving me crazy. Almost. Not just yet. There are so many interesting and exciting opportunities around campus and off campus or MIT affiliated but there is so little time and it's so hard to make decisions when we are presented with all these good stuff. I am so spoilt because of MIT. Don't get mad at me, I'm only half-complaining.

Guess I should get on to my emails and finish them asap so I can go to sleep. And oh man, I haven't started my 5.60 pset yet. And please remember get my ID back from Au Bon Pain tomorrow.

Conversation between my roommate and I:

2011-02-10T08:58:00.000+08:00

*sees Carolina walking into the room*
"woooooots do you want to host a prefrosh during CPW? I'm registering right now."

"YES!"

"how many do you want to host?"
*the options were one or two*

"Our room can fit two I think.."

"Yeah our room can definitely fit at least two. So should I request for two prefroshes?"

"Yeah!"

"Oh but then if you request for two, and I request for two, it'll be four prefroshes in our room............."

"no......... they won't be that stupid.....i think."

"hahaha okay!"

*both girls continue filling out the application form*

"Hey Coyin, what did you put for this question?"
Ideally, my prefrosh will be:
- Very independent
- Somewhat independent (may want to hang out occasionally with me during the weekend.)
- Somewhat dependent (may see me a couple times a day, but we're not joined at the hip.)
- Looking to me for guidance throughout CPW

"I put the second or third one, I don't remember. I think I put the third one.. I want to see him a few times a day, but I don't think I want him to stick around with me all day.........."

"NO, it's a HER. not a HIM.!"

"wait, how do you know!?"

"No *exasperated* of course the school won't give us a guy if the prefrosh is to sleep in our room"

"oh yeah hahaha, that was really dumb of me. .*split second later* OH SHYT. IT'S A HER!? Eww NO i definitely do NOT want her to stick around with me all day"

"Yeah.. I know! I would rather have a guy going around with me all day than a girl man..I usually get so annoyed if I hang out with a girl all day"

"*nods head to show full agreement*"

hahaha I love my roommate and I love how we are both rather anti-females. I wondered if I put that request on my housing application form.

2011-01-30T03:07:00.002+08:00

hellooooooooo

i am the ultimate happiest person in the world today

Sometimes I think MIT students care more about sleep than who the current president is.

2010-12-05T16:34:00.001+08:00

You know what MIT does to you?
It makes you feel awful when you are sleeping like a normal person.

For the past few days I have been sleeping between 7-9 hours every night, and I feel really, really guilty for wasting all those hours on sleep and not work. Although at the same time, I also blame it on my body's natural immune response. It's winter and flu season is almost here. A lot of people are getting sick and I probably am sleeping more just so I don't get sick a week before finals. OH WAIT. DID I JUST SAY THAT? A WEEK BEFORE FINALS?

My first finals in a year. At MIT. I don't even know if this is an honor or a horror. D:

But I digress. My ~~normal~~ extra hours of sleep should be well excused, I hope.

And I just realize our La Vaquita presentation is on Monday. I hope we'll do okay. It's been a great week so far, as I bid goodbye to my last 8.022 pset, I realize I have really enjoyed the class. Hopefully I can pass the finals with >66% next week, but if I don't, I really don't mind taking it again next semester. It's a great class at MIT. Afterthoughts will be written after finals. :)

Wait, I was going to talk about Sleep. It's ironic how just Friday night I slept at 4am, and now I actually just woke up at 3am to do work. ;)

Oh and I also realize. Two of the most popular drinks at MIT are probably Red Bull and Sleepytime Tea. Some people need to stay awake, and some people need to sleep. Some people cannot sleep after staying awake, and some people cannot stay awake after sleeping too much. You'll be surprised how many people I know are getting Sleepytime Tea recently. (It's also well recommended by a lot of experienced seniors.) I guess I am really lucky I can sleep where-ever and whenever I want.

Now schedule for tomorrow:
Morning UROP
iHouse Brunch
Trader Joe's for 2 weeks of grocery
Sleep/Nap
Work on Presentation
Freshmen seminar dinner
Skype with Mary @ 11pm
Finalize work on Presentation

Hopefully I won't feel sleepy tomorrow so I can substitute the Sleep/Nap with work for 8.022.
Full speed aheaddddddd.

Yet another typical MIT day

2010-11-30T07:44:00.000+08:00

The sky is dark outside.
Me: *working hard to finish 8.022 pset* grrrrr what the hell is this talking about..?!
Silence.

Five minutes later.
Me: *scratches head* ohh. my. god.

Ten minutes later.
Me: *groans* OH. MY GOD. I. WANT TO SLEEP.

Another five minutes later.
Me: Hey, are you going to bio tomorrow? *yawns*
T: yeah I'm a good student..
Me: *rolls eyes* Fine. I'll go too.
Silence.

Thirty minutes later.
Me: *packs things into backpack* Ah I'm done with this pset. Finally! *yawns* I'm going to bed.
T: Wait, you are done?
Me: Actually no, but I'll skip the seminar tomorrow and go to office hour. I have no idea how to do all these questions. What are you working on?
T: Oh I want to finish my HASS paper tonight. I don't want to leave it till tomorrow.
Me: .............. good luck then! *walks towards stairs, turns back* Hey what time is it now?
T: *looks at laptop* 4.17am
Me: NICE. *thinks for two seconds* 5 hours of sleep. That's not bad at all!
T: I know!! :D

End of story.

This week is Hell Week. Because next week is Dead Week. After this Friday, classes with finals cannot have any psets or midterms anymore. Which is why I have 5 psets due this week, including two 8.022s.

Alright. Get back to work.

hello 2

2010-11-20T05:20:00.000+08:00

i am so busy these past few weeks i dont even have time to do proper grocery shopping. we have run out of milk for a week and i'm eating bread that has been about a week after its expiration date (and i have to check for mold every time before toasting it) and i'm surviving on leftovers.

this weekend will be the 2nd most horrible weekend in the whole semester. thank god the first one has already passed. Ok i'll go back to my 8.022 pset.

And Monday, please come. After Monday I'll be free of tests till finals. Then Oklahoma! Then Mexico! :)

hello

2010-11-13T02:30:00.002+08:00

i want this midterm to be over so i can go and ask for loan and transfer money to my debit card and work on sealnet stuff and mitmunc and plan my weekend timetable and check if my passport is still there and clean my room and go to sealnet meeting and reply all the starred emails and facebook messages and start working on 8.022 pset tonight so i can work at the admissions office tomorrow morning and go to office hours during lunch and work on my UROP at night and sunday buy air tickets and work on psets for the rest of the week and study for my next midterm and do grocery shopping and cook.

whoa i just realize i DO actually have a lot of things to do.

Any ideas?

2010-10-27T12:24:00.000+08:00

I'm thinking of getting an iPod touch. Apple asked me if I wanted free (note this particular F word) personal engraving.

I was like, HMM. AWESOME. WHY NOT.

But!

Here's the problem.
What should I engrave on my iPod touch? 2 Lines.
No names, no smileys, no personal connections.

I have a few quotes in mind, and would really appreciate comments slash constructive opinions. :)

1. “Don’t count every hour in the day, make every hour in the day count.”
- Because there's so much work to do at MIT, I really need to have something to remind me how important it is to make full use of my time.

2. “Once we accept our limits, we go beyond them."
- This is a quote by Einstein. I thought it would be really motivational in times of failure, which no doubt happen quite frequently.

3. In fiducia nos fides
- This is in Latin. It means "in confidence, we trust", inspired / told to me by Sudha. I thought it would be a really good quote because 8.022 is making me losing confidence in everything. I get so scared that sometimes I can't even solve problems that I should know how to solve. i.e. I need my confidence back (and they say that's the key to handle MIT's workload)

4. This property belongs to the owner of time.
- This simply is because I need something to remind me that I own time, and am not owned by time.

5. “When we lose one blessing, another is often most unexpectedly given in its place.”
- A CS Lewis quote. The most general of all. Will be applicable throughout my life. :) And it's CS LEWIS!

Will also appreciate other suggestions that may or may not be quotes. :D Thank you!

Some Malaysians really annoy me.

2010-10-25T01:22:00.000+08:00

Chinese-Malaysians who know Chinese and yet have to pretend like they really don't understand Chinese just so they seem to be more "high-class" than other Chinese-Malaysians.

Chinese-Malaysians who blame everything on other Malaysians, especially those of other "races" (again, the term "race" really depends on how you define it), without being able to provide justifications for their opinions or those who simply love to add blind racist comments about other Malaysians in kopitiam talks just to show that they also "belong to the crowd".

Political leaders who speak loudly of how Malaysians should learn to bersatu irrespective of our differences, without realizing they are the only ones in Malaysia who still think we need to be taught how to accept people of other races.

Maybe.

Maybe it is high time for our leaders to stop talking for a moment and take a look at the country they love so much, to see that the rest of the anak Malaysia have already started to embrace, if not embracing, our diversity in unity.

In loving memory of Bryan Chiel

2010-10-06T11:44:00.000+08:00

It was my pleasure to have known Bryan.

He was one of the most dependable people I have known, be it as the class monitor, or as a friend, you knew you could count on him anytime you wanted. He was generous, compassionate, disciplined and willing to strive hard for the things he wanted to achieve. I used to tell my mom stories after school about how great a person Bryan was, and how much I had learnt from this friend. I remember I used to laugh at him whenever it was his time to read a Chinese passage out loud in class, because he had this Manglish accent when reading Mandarin, which was really funny. We used to tease him about it, but he was never offended and would play along with us. And as he did not really speak Mandarin at home, he would work a little harder and occassionally get help from his peers to improve his Chinese. I was moved by this six years ago, and since then had always reminded myself of this determination of his when I encountered challenges in learning and speaking English. And this was only one of the many ways in which Bryan had affected people around him.

Bryan's good sense of humor was also one of the best things about his character. He could always crack jokes at the right time and make everyone laugh and have a good time, and he was definitely well-liked by most, if not all, who had known him. In fact, he had this unique charisma that could make everyone, even those who had only met him for the first time feel like, "Bryan? He's the man. Really, he's the man!" Nobody knew how he did it, but he did. Amazingly.

Tomorrow, a month later, or even many years from now, there may be times where we miss Bryan and wish that he is still here. Our hearts may ache, our minds may long to turn back the time. But no matter what we do, everyone, please miss Bryan with a smile, for Bryan was a wonderful guy who was always radiating with positive energy and would be happy to see those he loved enjoying their lives.

一豪， you will be missed. =)

this blog

2010-09-20T10:28:00.000+08:00

is dead.

because i am at MIT and i have so many things that are more interesting to do here than blogging is.

bUT.
if you are a prospective MIT 'x
(where x > 14 and x is a whole number | and x = year of graduation = year of entry to MIT + 4)
and want to know more about y
(where y = life at MIT or US applications or applications to Cambridge / UK universities or applications for medical schools),
questions are welcome at the following email address. [i am very friendly. to some people that is. ;)]

To stalk me,
there is always Facebook. oh and Plurk.
If I have not met you before and you, for some creepy unknown reasons, would like to add me as a Facebook friend, please send me a nice Facebook message together with your friend request. I love meeting friendly people. :)
Plurk works too. simply because Plurk >>>>> Twitter.

This blog is not officially dead yet. i shall make it official when the time comes.
It might be revived if I run out of fun things to do at MIT. Or when the Institvte becomes too unbearable for me.

Have a great day, everyone.

=O

2010-06-29T21:24:00.000+08:00

life is over.
i'm wayyyyy over the moon
i dont know what to think anymore
O.M.G. we TALKED!
my mind is so blank right now.
and ohgawd my heart is beating so fast
and i'm ~~hyperventilating~~ ok i'm taking deep breaths so i wont faint cuz i'm feeling REAL dizzy right now

ohgosh oh gosh oh gosh
my life is perfect.
PERFECT.

我没有讲你啊

2010-06-28T23:55:00.001+08:00

UH-OH.

惨。

我真的不是在讲你。

你要相信我。

我真的真的真的不是在讲你。

YERRR.

怪不得啦。

很拖衰咯。
你啊。不是我啊。

我真的不是在讲你。

Pleaseeeeee.
T_______T

有些东西还是早早讲清楚的好。
弄到现在不清不楚很不得了咧。

天啊。
我没有话讲了啦。
可是我真的不是在讲你。

你要相信我。
不，你不止要相信我，
你还要知道我现在讲的是你。

yerrr.
我现在很无言咯。
yerr 你最好不要给我在这几年见到你。

it's it's it's............. RAINING!

2010-06-25T14:25:00.002+08:00

what a bliss.

/hugs Rain-God.

now i suddenly have so many things i want to blog about

2010-06-24T14:55:00.000+08:00

that i think i better go practice my piano now and blog later if i still remember anything.

i feel healthy today.

and i love my neighborhood.

i am still very excited about MIT.

McDonald's fries

2010-06-04T17:02:00.003+08:00

The best McD fries I have ever tasted so far..would be the one I had in London - the branch at High Holborn.

The texture of the fries was perfect - not all McD branches could make them perfect - but it wasn't any exceptional. I did not know exactly what made me think they were the best I had tasted, but it might be because I was eating them alone like a real backpacker, or it might be because of the people with whom I shared the table. There were three of them: Father, Mother and Child. Child was a six-year-old kid, with a brace-like thing on her, and from their conversation I guessed she just got discharged from the hospital. She looked kind of sick, though. I remembered Father politely asked me, "Do you mind if we sit here?" I was a bit taken aback, as I was hoping to enjoy a private silent moment after a long walk in the city. But I said no of course, and the smile on his face was so wide that it could light up a million hearts when he waved for Mother and Child to come over. None of us exchanged any word after that. I took out my mini London A-Z and some of the maps I picked up from Stansted Airport, browsing through them trying to decide my next destination. I then also took out my camera - Child was staring at me with a gleam of interest in her eyes - and looked through the pictures I had taken so far. Father and Mother were discussing intently about something; they looked like they were worried about their financial situation. But Mother tried her best to make Child happy.

It was a very strange moment. They looked like immigrants who were struggling to make a living in that enormous city, and I was just a traveler who happened to be there. I felt like I did not belong to London, I felt like I had intruded the privacy of the city - like how one would feel when one accidentally eavesdropped on a family's private matters - I felt like I was looking into a secret that people had tried so hard to keep it away from me, but amidst all these I also felt accepted, I felt the relief of being told the truth, I felt like I belonged to the family of travelers in London.

I only ordered a side of medium fries. No drink, no burger. I was not hungry and I just wanted something to warm myself up while I waited for a call. The fries were good probably because it cost me 99 pence. Or it might be because of winter, and the hot fries warmed not only my hands, my body, but also my heart. It was a bit like the joy of being able to have a plate of good roasted turkey in a cold snowy Christmas morning, except I believed the latter would be so much more wonderful. It was probably because I was waiting to see if Samuel would call to confirm our lunch date with Tze Wei, or probably because I was feeling a bit helpless and lost in that big city with my phone line barred all so suddenly that very morning.

I could not figure out what actually made the fries so memorably delicious, and most likely never would. But I would remember for as long as I would eat McDonald's, how that side of Medium Fries made me feel welcomed in that strange city of London.

i'm such a kiddd

2010-06-01T01:12:00.001+08:00

i enjoy being praised
i like being thanked
i adore people with wonderful personalities
i love being with youuuuu. <3

:-)))

MCCM

2010-05-28T09:17:00.000+08:00

Cambridge's mails make you feel important. The whole packaging style, the words used, the letter design, and even the type of paper used make you feel like you're in the 19th century receiving a very prestigious letter from a university. Or.. like Hogwarts. I don't know if you can imagine that, but you just feel so.....privileged.

whereas MIT's stuff gives people a very playful notion. The colors, the smileys, the type of things they include in the mailing, the doodles..they are like telling you not to take things in life so seriously. You have worked hard for high school, now go out and enjoy! So summer-ish. So... American.

:) I feel so blessed to be able to receive mails from both institutions - I know I only have a few months left to enjoy this. And I have this crazy idea, that is to accept Cambridge's offer and tell them I cannot complete the Financial Guarantee part. especially since they have been reminding me repeatedly that "Your offer is conditional upon us receiving the financial guarantee information we have requested by 1 August 2010." ;P

By the way, I did this yesterday: Sending mails to two Cambridges. Thought it looked really cool.

i still regret the fact that

2010-05-14T17:08:00.000+08:00

I did not take a train to Cambridge when I went to London.

They call the train the Cambridge Express man, CAMBRIDGE EXPRESS...!!! Like Hogwarts Express.

Grrrr how stupid could I be.

/sobs/.

饱了

2010-05-13T13:26:00.002+08:00

是精神上的。

满了

梅兰芳同志千古——老舍

（转载自 http://www.meilanfang.com.cn/mlf/comment-4.htm )

我们正在大兴安岭上游览访问，忽然听到梅兰芳同志病逝的消息。我们都黯然久之，热泪欲坠！我们之中，有的是梅大师的朋友，有的只看过他的表演，伤心却是一致辞的。谁都知道这是全国戏曲界的一个重大损失！

我有许多话要说，但是心中悲痛，无法安排好我的话语。我只好想到什么就说什么。在这心酸意乱的时刻中，我已控制不住自己的感情，无法有条有理的讲话！

我与梅大师一同出国访问过两次，一次到朝鲜，一次到苏联。在行旅中，我们行则同车，宿则同室。在同车时，他总是把下铺让给我，他睡上铺。他知道我的腰腿有病。同时，他虽年过花甲，但因幼工结实，仍矫健如青年人。看到他上去下来，那么轻便敏捷，我常常对友人们说：大师一定长寿，活到百龄是很可能的！是呀，噩耗乍来，我许久不能信以为真！

不论在车上，还是在旅舍中，他总是早起早睡，劳逸结合。起来，他便收拾车厢或房间：不仅把被子叠得整整齐齐，而且不许被单上有一些皱纹。收拾完自己的，他还过来帮助我。他不许桌上有一点烟灰，衣上有点尘土。他的手不会闲着。他在行旅中，正如在舞台上，都一丝不苟地处理一切。他到哪里，哪里就得清清爽爽，有条有理，开辟个生活纪律发着光彩的境地。

在闲谈的时候，他知道的便源源本本地告诉我；他不知道的就又追问到底。他诲人不倦，又肯广问求知。他不叫已有的成就限制住明日的发展。这就难怪，他在中年已名播全世，而在晚年还有新的贡献。他的确是活到老、学到老的人。

每逢他有演出任务的时候，在登台前好几个小时就去静坐或静卧不语。我赶紧躺开他。他要演的也许是《醉酒》，也许是《别姬》。这些戏，他已演过不知多少次了。可是，他仍然要用半天的时间去准备。不，不仅准备，他还思索在哪一个身段，或某一句的行腔上，有所改进。艺术的锤炼是没有休止的！

他很上就到后台去，检查一切。记得：有一次，他演《醉酒》，几个宫娥是现由文工团调来的。他就耐心地给她们讲解一切，并帮助她们化装。他发现有一位宫娥，面部的化装很好，而耳后略欠明洁，他马上代她重新敷粉。他不许舞台上有任何敷衍的地方，任何对不起观众的地方。舞台是一幅图画，一首诗，必须一笔不苟！

在我这次离京以前，他告诉我：将到西北去演戏，十分高兴。他热爱祖国，要走遍各省，叫全国人民看见他，听到他，并向各种地方戏学习。他总是这样热情地愿献出自己的劳动，同时吸收别人的长处。五十多年的舞台生活，他给我们创造了多少新的东西啊！这些创造正是他随时随地地学习，力除偏见与自满的结果。

他不仅是京剧界的一代宗师，继往开来，风格独创，他的勤学苦练，自强不息的精神，他的爱国爱党，为民族争光的热情，也是我们一般人都应学习的！

在朝鲜时，我们饭后散步，听见一间小屋里有琴声与笑语，我们便走了进去。一位志愿军的炊事员正在拉胡琴，几位战士在休息谈笑。他就烦炊事员同志操琴，唱了一段。唱罢，我向大家介绍他，屋中忽然静寂下来。待了好一会儿，那位炊事员上前拉住他的双手，久久不放，口中连说：梅兰芳同志！，梅兰芳同志！这位同志想不起别的话来！

今天我在兴安岭中，大草原上，也只能南望悲呼：梅兰芳同志！梅兰芳同志！梅兰芳同志离开我们了，梅兰芳同志永垂不朽！

原载《北京文艺》1961年9月号

现在才看了陈凯歌的《梅兰芳》，
前面那部分到十三燕死的那一刻很完美
艺术及风度的表现完全体现，不，是总结了中国近代电影独一无二之处
单那45 分钟的演出就已经可以让这部电影值回票价了。
我忘了演十三燕的人是谁，不过电影中台词里提到的“出神入化”
我会用来贴贴切切地形容他的演技。
该去找找看他的戏了。

反之那部分高潮一过却让人有些失望了。
像是为了配合现代观众和票房要求而俗化了。
怪不得几个月前我偶然换台看到才看几分钟就顶不顺走人。

孙红雷演的邱如白发挥的淋漓尽致
说真的我觉得支持着整部戏后面那部分的就只有他这个角色
黎明的功力不容置疑，没人会说他这回演的不好的。
可他就是演不活梅兰芳那个角色，那个神采，那种清秀。
没有。
他带不了梅兰芳身上的艺术气息，他表现不了梅兰芳的自我、梅兰芳的坚持、梅兰芳的精神。
或许真的还找不到可以完全表现这个角色的演员吧，因为黎明来演这个人物其实已经是一个很没错（不是不错）的选择。

章子怡的经典还是很让人耳目一新，
陈红演的福芝芳虽然还不让人叹之完美可还很不错的。
像很多自传戏那样，陈凯歌还是无法完全把梅兰芳的生平事迹贴切地拍出来，甚至还漏了几段重要的部分，
不过总的来说我还是会建议人家去看这场戏的。
是那种看了会让人深思一会的戏。7.5/10 :)

when you're done being crazy

2010-05-13T00:02:00.004+08:00

Lately I've been trying
To fill up my days since you're gone.
The speed of love is blinding,
And I didn't know how to hold on.
My mind won't clear.
I'm out of tears.
My heart's got no room left inside.

How many dreams will end?
How long can I pretend?
How many times will love pass me by,
Until I find you again?

Will the arms of hope surround me?
Will time be a fairweather friend?
Should I call out to angels,
Or just drink myself sober again?
I can't hide, it's true.
I still burn for you.
Your memory just won't let me go.

How many dreams will end?
How long can I pretend?
How many times will love pass me by,
Until I find you again?

I'd hold you tighter,
Closer than ever before.
Yeah.
No flame would burn brighter,
If I could touch you once more,
Hold you once more!

How many dreams will end?
How long can I pretend?
How many times will love pass me by, until I find you again?
'till I find you again..

some friends make you feel like hugging every single person on earth and telling them i love you

2010-05-11T16:09:00.001+08:00

one of those friends will be ting cheau ya <3 :))

hhe i love you so much. i get happcited every time we talk. =) Happcited for happy and excited.

yays.
xoxo

a major in physics

2010-05-11T14:51:00.003+08:00

http://web.mit.edu/physics/current/undergrad/major.html

woots i'm so excited. =D

there're so many things offered by MIT that i really really like. hopefully i get to make a good decision when i'm there! =)))

Being a physics major:

Required Subjects
8.03 Physics III (vibrations and waves) - like it 60% of the time!
18.03 or 18.034 Differential Equations - OOH LIKEY.
8.033 Relativity - like it 80% of the time!
8.223 (IAP) Classical Mechanics II (Class of 2013 and later) - Aah LOVEY.
8.04 Quantum Mechanics I - SWEET.
8.044 Statistical Physics I - Loves.
8.05 Quantum Mechanics II - LIKEY.
8.06 CI-M* Quantum Mechanics III - III? MIGHT likey.
8.13 CI-M* Experimental Physics I - sounds good. :D
8.14 Experimental Physics II - NICEY.
8.ThU Thesis (12 units) - *getting sick*

so i should like it right? =D haha i'm just playing a guessing game on the course names. the contents might not really suit me.

Focus selection!

Biophysics
7.03 (4-0-8) Genetics
7.05 (5-0-7) General Biochemistry
8.593J (formerly 8.515J) (4-0-8) Biological Physics
to satisfy the experimental requirement
7.02 (2-8-5) Introduction to Experimental Biology

-- Very nice. =)

whoa

2010-05-06T12:40:00.001+08:00

hehehe i still think this picture looks good.

go have a look at it here:
http://ocioyico.blogspot.com/2009/04/right-now.html

I have a few things in mind

2010-05-06T12:35:00.000+08:00

that I would like to do in the following months.
and I have a good feeling about this.

I should not be stressed out nor should I even feel nervous because I have gotten all the things I want in life.

I shall be good and go practice my piano for at least two hours today.
I know I have been saying this since forever.

I hope MIT's mail will reach soon, if there is even a package of mail to begin with.

I am having a combination of cold, cough and sore throat. The typical Malaysian illness. and it's making me crazy. The last time I got this was a week or two after I got back from the States - I blamed it on trying-to-adapt-to-local-delicacies then.

I'm excited about Uncrustables. And tacobell. Oh and sonic, if there is one in Boston. And O.M.G. ARBY'S! how. could i. forget. arby's. CURLY FRIES. whoa. quadruple omgoshness.

I'm doing a lot of research on something today. And I'm gonna make full use of MIT's OCW very soon.
And I hope to get another volunteer job soon.

woot. and I hope we can have a gathering when the singapore people are back.

and wow, I managed to start almost all sentences with "I" today.
not surprising.

i was talking to someone on MSN then

2010-05-01T01:16:00.000+08:00

.Oyico. i love you and you love me too =) says (1:13 AM):
*oh by the wayyyyy
*next time when u have kids
*i can get some mit shirts for your little sinn-shuns!
*http://store.thecoop.com/coopstore/servlet/com.bst.servlets.EStoreWebControlServlet?object=EstoreGenTreeLib&method=ExpandMenu&categoryuno=399
*omgosh they are SO CUTE

i have so many things to talk about that i dont feel like blogging anymore. (:

i'm fuming

2010-04-27T16:07:00.002+08:00

like i'm in a steam machine.
let's not even talk about it.

speaking of fumes, ugh i hate perfumes and air fresheners which smell like god-knows-what-that-just-makes-your-nose-feels-like-h3ll
yes i had a terrible time in my office's lift just 3 minutes ago, thank you.

AH.
i hope May 3 will come faster. so i can make my decision sooner. so i can book my flight tickets sooner. so air ticket prices will not keep on rising. so hopefully all the money i earn in my job this year will be sufficient to cover my air tickets. though i doubt it will, but gah i shall hope for the best. and stop taking leaves to go to post offices or police stations or back to college (for stupid purposes). i feel my heart aching every time i think of all the money i will never get whenever i take a day off.

this reminds me. the closer it gets to August, the closer are the days for me to really cut down my spending. Days of scanning the restaurant's menu and choosing the cheapest option, days of saving here and there and telling myself not to spend anything unnecessary, days of ordering plain water in restaurants because they are FREE, days of thinking for a few weeks before buying anything. Ew. those were seriously hard days. Do you know how glad I was to see "NORMALLY-priced" stuff in KL when i got back in July two years ago? Lol i was like FINALLY i can order food i LOVE to eat without having to glance at the price. YEAH. but now to go to university this August, the whole cycle is gonna start again. =S and me working on campus = having to be more careful with my hard-earned money. like taking away all my leftovers in restaurants? (or to-go as they call it.) like eating hot dogs for multiple days in a row? like not eating junk food when i'm bored of studying? ugh. I feel like something's tugging my stomach just to think of the days. gutted.

by the way, the weather was good today. had a heavy rain. I'm pretty wet now, but i'm happy - only with the rain. (:

by by the other way, i'm still fuming. grrr. =[

Gorgeous

2010-04-23T11:57:00.001+08:00

.http://www.chilloutpoint.com/featured/top-5-most-beautiful-cars-in-2009.html

ahahhahaha

2010-04-22T09:56:00.002+08:00

I can't stop laughing at this:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2010/04/13/kids-hate-politicians-and_n_533944.html#s79868

Happenings!

2010-04-21T14:23:00.003+08:00

1. I got financial aid from MIT! =DD Ah but it's not as much as I thought it would be, and that sort of depressed me for a few minutes. But then again, maaa said they're actually pretty generous already considering what we put in our CSS Profile form, so tada I'm happy again =D i'll still be making an appeal though, there's no harm having a little more money (no joke), plus that amount - although affordable - would still be a relatively large burden on my family. (: and with that amount i have to pay, I REALLY gotta save up on meals and personal expenses when I'm there. (and this, is not very fun.) =(

2. There's nothing like a yummy plate of rice with good food on it that makes you feel like an angel. Or one of the rare blessed souls who find it extremely hard to complain about life.

3. I had a car accident last Saturday! MY POOR DARLING CAR. It's now lying alone in some faraway workshop waiting to be fixed, for my car's front head light (just one), radiator, driver's car door, bonnet, bumper, etc (which includes car-workshop-repairman-knows-what) are all smashed. And there were metal pieces all over the road that night. And one metal thingy got stuck around my tyre so my car trembled non-stop when I tried to drive it away so it wouldn't be blocking the road, but apparently i failed so I had to wait until my poor car was towed. And there were Indian gangsters surrounding me that night. And three of my uncles actually went there to help me out. Oh but nobody got hurt, fortunately.

ugh. life has been so hard ever since. I feel like cursing all those people who drive manual Wiras cuz I MISS MY CAR. Yes I know it's only a Wira. but I STILL MISS MY CAR. And yes it's manual which means I am shifting gears most of the time and I can't be on my cell and drive at the same time BUT i STILL MISS MY CAR. =(

Gah. It was not even my fault. I'm a berry good driver (ask Kai Hoe. Don't ask Chan.). When I told people (including my mom, dad, uncles, cousins, etc) about the accident, everyone just assumed it was my fault cuz I HIT the other car. Luckily the police uncle (as in jin cha shu shu HAHA) was very nice and clever and funny and smart. Tell me about justice. I hope the other driver (who was a 20ish girl) wouldn't have her license suspended. That would definitely suck man. I'm dying to write the details of the car accident here, but this blog is VERY public (i like the sound of using "public" as an adjective - it's nearly as awesome as saying "this is SO MIT." /glees*) Yeah. so I'll save the scoop for people I meet - when we run out of things to talk - because the whole incident is definitely very exciting (and adrenaline-pumping) =DD

Anyways, (in the Midwest accent) I don hav' no car now, y'all be'er be givin me rides! x)

4. I'll update when I can think of more things to write. But I'm afraid most of it will be about MIT or Cambridge. Sorry nothing much's happening in my life now.

ah by the way, I changed me mind. I don't think I want to be staying in a single in my first year. =)

Tik tok tik tok

2010-04-16T10:05:00.002+08:00

Right now, I only live for this very day:

May 3, 2010.

Created by OnePlusYou

But it's not good to reply on the day itself. In case of any computer glitches or whatsoever. So.

I managed to convince daddy to let me reply on this day instead!

April 29, 2010.

Created by OnePlusYou

So. come come fast fast okayy?? and my financial aid too.

because Cambridge said,

"Dear Coyin

Further to my letter to you dated 5th January 2010 containing the details of your offer to study for a BA Honours degree in Preclinical Medical Studies, it is with great pleasure I now write to confirm that you have fulfilled the academic conditions of your offer to study here at St. John's from October 2010.

Kind regards,
Dr. xxx xxxx
Admissions Tutor.

Preclinical medical studies. sounds so infinitely cool. =)

and they aren't asking for A* from me anymore. St. John's is. the best. enough said.

but I'm choosing MIT. i know. i just know. gah.

and even Mr. Ala said I'll be happy at MIT. more than at Cambridge.

GAH.

and it's too late, Dr. Chocolate. I've already very much in love with Mr. Mocha. <3<3

xoxo.

Youtube

2010-04-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

..is such a great tool for cyberstalking purposes.

That video actually reminds me of all the qualities ~~I saw in you~~ I need to equip myself with.
Thank you very much, again. And you don't know how many thank yous I owed you. :)

Aww.

2010-04-09T13:47:00.003+08:00

Cambridge vs. MIT - Restropection

Another one.
Pictures of Cambridgeeeee, UK
DID SOMEONE JUST SAY THE DOME LOOKS ABSOLUTELY AWESOME??

Hilarious moments in life.

2010-04-08T22:24:00.001+08:00

Hahahahaha i saw this:
"Something unusual about MIT: the architecture. Some of it is just absolutely awesome (the Dome in particular is a terrific sight on a beautiful day, especially across Memorial Drive). Some of it is weird (Simmons, Stata, Kresge). But at least we keep it interesting, and we don't have boring little red brick buildings that are all indistinguishable from each other... cough, Harvard, cough. :)"
- Simmons is..WEIRD. ok it does look weird from the pictures, i'll have to see how it really looks like when i'm standing in frnt of it.

- the last sentence? i LOLed literally. HAHAHAHA.

- the Dome is absolutely awesome? aih not wait till u see pictures of Cambridge. gah St. John's!!!!

(source: here)

I SO must need to apply for CME to cambridge. i wonder if we get to choose a college of our choice. i don't care, i'm choosing St. John's =) cannot "辜负它对我的一片情意咯" =D Aih just talking about it makes me sakit hati. =( but CME doesn't sound very practical, cuz ppl are usually busy applying for jobs? internships? medschools? during that time i think. We shall see. =)

Another hilarious moment?
When news travel wrong. I shall not talk so much about that, but it happened again this morning. x)

MIT review

2010-04-08T21:05:00.000+08:00

me love love love.

Read review here.

Quotes:
- "We work hard, party harder, and sleep never."

- "Of course, the rings look hideously ugly, but like the rest of MIT, they hold great value if you can look beyond appearances."

but I love this the most.
"So this scene is really what you make of it- nobody will force you to do anything so it's really up to you to make of it what you will."

Excitement

2010-04-07T18:31:00.003+08:00

I'm excited at the thought of returning to America.
but I'm not excited at the thought of going to America.
Is there a difference between these two?
I think there is.

In other words, I think I'm more excited about Oklahoma than Massachusetts. and anyways, things have changed so much in OK that even if I go back, it might be very hard to meet the people I want to meet too.

Such is one of the not-so-wonderful moments in life.

HIV+

2010-04-02T09:40:00.002+08:00

I think there are like infinite many HIV viruses (yeah i know this means double viruses but i love calling them this way) all over my body (not IN) because there seems to be a lot of HIV positive people around me.

Rest assured the viruses are all dead though. Apparently they cannot survive outside the body for more than a few minutes. And they die almost immediately when they are in contact with oxygen or when the surrounding temperature is not within the range of 36 - 38 degrees Celsius.

tweets

2010-04-01T16:45:00.001+08:00

it is very heartening to read the project reports of AIDS NGOs in Malaysia and realize how religious and cultural differences do not exist in this effort of combating AIDS. To me, that signifies the beauty of Malaysia more than anything else.

i hate giving blog posts titles

2010-03-22T13:50:00.002+08:00

nyeheheheheheh today i'm in a blogging mood! blogger should consider changing its "New Post" page design every day like my google homepage. Usually when I reach this page and see the standard white, brown (i'm not a color person, so yes this brown-like color is brown to me), dark blue, orange (or is it red?) layout, all the words I want to say simply vanish into thin air. and NO, i don't know what kind of laugh was that.

but anyways something funny happened just 10 minutes ago. I returned Prof. / Dr. A's (no he's not a real prof, neither is he a doctor. though i think he's getting his PhD soon) call which i missed last Saturday.

Me (M) ; Prof/Dr. A (A)
*conversation*
Me: uhhh you called me the other day, right?
A: what the other day? That was one year ago!
Me: Oh. Right. yeah so why did you call me ah?
A: why am i the last one to hear about your mit offer!?
Me: huh whaat? but i smsed you!
A: No you DIDN'T. the day I called you was the day I heard about the offer!
Me: i DID. hahaha but my offer news was so long ago lahh.
A: no you did not. yalah TWO years ago.

A is my lecturer.

oh yeah?

2010-03-19T18:27:00.000+08:00

I thought i was gonna post something.

but i then decided not to.

it just seemed better that way.

quote of the time

2010-03-18T18:28:00.001+08:00

"Only by going alone in silence, without baggage, can one truly get into the heart of the wilderness. All other travel is mere dust and hotels and baggage and chatter."
-John Muir, naturalist, explorer, and writer (1838-1914)

me likey.

p.s. what on EARTH is THIS!?

!?!?

eww

2010-03-18T16:53:00.000+08:00

how dreadful.

GOOGLE ACTUALLY FAILED ME.

i couldn't, and still can't find what i want.

this feels like the end of the world.

oh no.

how can anyone still be thinking of MIT after seeing this?

2010-03-17T09:21:00.000+08:00

adorable.

a hate and love affair

2010-03-16T15:37:00.004+08:00

now this, makes me want to go to MIT.

"MIT has your best interests at heart. If you are completely honest about yourself in your application, you are sure to be happy with the result. If you are accepted to MIT, rest assured that you belong there and will thrive. If you are not accepted, be comfortable knowing that MIT wants you to be happy and knows you won't be as happy at MIT as you may be at another school."

- source: http://www.mitadmissions.org/topics/apply/keep_in_mind.shtml

maybe i really should not worry about not fitting in =)

uh-oh

2010-03-15T07:15:00.006+08:00

Mister Intelligent Turtle

said yes.

whoa.

Class of 2014.

I'm in shock.

edit: gosh. I actually feel sad. on a scale of one to ten, it's about six.
to think it's so hard to get admitted and YET i know very honestly i wouldn't go and accept their offer.. what the h3ll??

准备

2010-03-13T16:14:00.000+08:00

*inhales deeply*

Owhkayhh.

Rejections.

I'm ready.

bye.

kepada saudaraimu yang dicintai,

2010-03-12T14:00:00.001+08:00

dear blog,

i. am berry bored.
that's why i decided to apply to nus.
and that's why i'm doing it now.
i'm so glad weekends are here soon!
i'm so dead worried about getting rejection letters.
i'm still being optimistic though.
life's very good for now.
nothing to complain =)
maybe i'll have something to complain on monday.
ohno now im scared again.

shoooooo shut up and go apply to nus bye

Edit: i closed the application window after filling in half page of the form. i didnt know u need to submit a portfolio for medicine applicants haha. guess i should get my parents' permission first. ah well. what else can i do now?

car lights

2010-03-12T09:56:00.000+08:00

OHMYGD I SO NEED TO PASTE A GIANT-SIZED NOTICE ON MY DASHBOARD TO REMIND ME TO TURN OFF MY CAR'S HEADLIGHTS.

IT'S BEEN SO MANY TIMES AND I'VE GOTTEN MY BATTERY DEAD SO MANY TIMES AND HERE I AM, STILL AS STUPID AS EVER, NO LESSON LEARNED. GAH I SO NOT DESERVE HAVING A CAR.

p.s. Finally. After THREE weeks of work. I managed to drive to work from my house without my GPS and without missing any turns. Hahahahahah I'm so hopeless *kembang in shan's style*

intimidated

2010-03-10T13:52:00.001+08:00

i am.
VERY.
(do i sound like master yoga? -.- i'm reminded of mr leonard. LOL.)

http://caltech.typepad.com/caltech_as_it_happens/2010/03/rd-admissions-committee-day-2.html

anyways, do click the above link. the pictures ARE intimidating.

i feel nauseated. =S

EDIT: SPM results out tomorrow! anyone's nervous? :DD

universities are freaky

2010-03-09T15:42:00.006+08:00

Ohmygawd.
I must be the greediest b!aaatch ever.

I'm F.R.E.A.K.I.N.G out - BIG TIME - on my applications. *bites nails*
Ms. E said she'll reply latest by 31 March, but a lot of people seem to have started hearing from her in these couple of days. So now I'm checking my email inbox everyday with an ultra-accelerated heart. This is bad. for health i think. ah I'm so nervous. the last of my UK applications.

And oh no. why am I EVEN nervous.
Come on coyin. you have got the one, and only, no pun intended, and most likely the one you'll be going.
*mutters to self* BUT HE is NOT perfect. And his imperfections do give me regrets. =(

And I just got to know Mr. M is replying on 14 March! 3.14 yeap. Pi day. VERY FUNNY. I love him so much. His interview was the earliest I had among his "contemporary peers" (LOL), so I did quite an unusual amount of research, and I grew so attached to him that I now REALLY cannot bear the sight of getting a rejection letter. ah shoot. Next Monday. 2pm. Malaysian time. and I'll be at work. I think I might have to sign out my gmail for once. Just in case I suffer from some nutcasey nervous breakdown or hyperventilation or anything *takes a deep breath* that will prevent me from driving back home safely (given I am already such a dangerous driver when my physical and mental health are in their best conditions). oh nonono. *[tens of millions of butterflies in stomach] gulps in uneasiness*

And the rest of them are replying S.O.O.N. too. I gave up on LACs already. Yeah I know they WERE my "more preferable choices" in the beginning, but urm i haven't exactly got the best experiences with them during the months of admission process (including a ~~bad~~ strange interview), so..yeah. Ms. W, Mr. W - if you DO reject me, I will understand.
edit: OMG some people heard from Mr. W YESTERDAY!

And Mr. CT! This is a different person. hahhaah. The most difficult of all. Also the one I applied for fun, really. Like a one-night-stand flirt date or something. I really really like him. but it's so impossible to get him to say yes so I have not really harbored any hopes on him. Applied just for the sake of the name (it sounds SO. COOL. Tell me about it.) and didn't apply for any financial aid anyway. Oh wait. but I have a feeling I'll still terasalah if I get rejected. =(

And what else. AH. the VIPs. I applied to only 2 of them. Thank god.
The big shot Mr. H. And the ever so gentleman Mr. P. They're replying on April the 1st. (yeah yeah... EVEN FUNNIER *rolls eyes*) Mr. H did not even bother to interview me. Or maybe I'll get an interview in these 3 weeks? Lol. Mr. P..aih nothing can be said about him. He's so near perfect. The only flaw he has is that he does not agree (or his parents do not agree) to my conditions of having this particular twin after we get married. Between both of them, though, I think I prefer Mr. P to Mr H. I only considered proposing to Mr P like..one or one and a half weeks before the application deadline I think?? haha he had Never been on my list. And I have been surfing Mr. H's site since 2004 or something. But I think I'll get a heart attack IF I do get either of them. A mild myocardial infarction for Mr. P, but a severe acute one for Mr. H, adding on a possibility of going into cardiac arrest. Omgoshness. I am SO dead. April 1st.

I have been telling myself again and again that I have got the one I wanted. WHY SPEND TIME WORRYING ABOUT THE REST!? BUT STILLLLLLLLL. gah. I have even read the email (with the offer letter attached) for umpteen times already. And YET.

ah come on. pick yourself up. Face the rejections boldly. They don't mark the end of the world.

side side side side note: I am still happy about Mr. C though. =) Very happy.

epistula per diligo

2010-02-27T18:42:00.001+08:00

虽然我总是很懒得回信
不过我真的很喜欢收到你的来信 =))

还有谢谢你在我很迟才回信时那么宽容地给予谅解 :)

Leehom is my boyfriend. Okay kidding, just something similar.

2010-02-23T23:35:00.004+08:00

yay now I'm so happy =D cuz u know what huiwen said?
Getting Mr. C is like getting Leehom as a boyfriend!
*=)))))* to the power of n

Yeah exactly. I shall be a good girl from now on and not complain about how good it would be if I could go to med school right now because getting Mr.C to say yes is like getting Leehom as a boyfriend! Now now how can anyone still complain when ~~they have Leehom as a boyfriend~~ Mr. C said yes to them?

:)))
It's like I have this huge crush on him, like I'm falling in love. I'm all infatuated. I can't stop thinking about him, Mr. C of course, I get jitters whenever he appears in my mind, I get butterflies in my stomach whenever somebody say something, anything at all, about him. Or even his rival. I can be staring into mid air and smiling without any reason at all. And I feel like I'm the happiest person in the world when I read his letter again and again. ~~God~~ ~~Buddha~~ Guan Yin gave me more than I deserve. And I'm grateful.

Oh I hope October comes faster.

And I get my dowry.

~~I wanna see him.~~

I wanna be with him.

p.s.Started two days of work! Won't go into details, but basically if anyone needs free condoms, you're welcome to contact me ;) yeah that's what happens when you work at the Malaysian AIDS Council. (:

Singapore trip

2010-02-05T22:45:00.001+08:00

It's only been less than 36 hours since I arrived Singapore, but it feels like 36 days already.

haha i have so many stories to tell, but we shall save them for a time when i feel like blogging.

I miss NUS! Special thanks to bohon (he basically teman-ed me for these 2 days going here n there, wasting money + energy, yeah cuz everyone's busy and he's the free-est, or slackest as they called it), really i tak tau mcm mana nak repay u ler=( haha nx time u manage to save ur 2k, come visit me la:D i'll make sure u have a very good time. even if i am in Kedah. lol i'll cook u the best padi la ><

Thanks lots also to Apple (for letting me sleep her room........'s FLOOR - LOL HAHAHA - and giving me the nicest treatment she can ever give to somebody, and when i say nice, i do mean it. she's like the person who treated me best when i was there).

Of course how can i forget Huey's generosity amidst her EXTREME busy-ness (thank you so much ler, i really miss ur floor <3), Weihao's speeches, Sumyue's company and flexibility, Gehwui's talks and warm-ity (i'm so sorry we did not have supper/lunch in the end =( me is still so sadd now).. and all the others who came over from Malaysia this weekend (awesome people) thanks so much guys :D love you all forever

haha why is this now a thank-you speech? Lol. but really, CH people are the best mates around.

but basically im at NTU now. another round of sheer awesomeness. NEC rocks man, seriously. shall write a bit more a few days later la :) [LOL and i met someone who reminds me big time of WZ.. hahahhaa.]

im so happy happy happy.
stomach not feeling so good but im drinking nicey milo now.

berry excited about my first conference.

but now im also a bitty scared about it. Not nervous. but scared. Noway im gonna tell ppl im engaged to Mr C werh. sure TS like mad. x)

can't wait for sunday night to come so i'll be able to talk to siewlee n huiyi :)) ahh i really miss chong hwa!

good night everyone <3 have a good night's sleep.

noway.

2010-02-04T06:53:00.000+08:00

This is crap.
Serious ones.

I was skimming through the position papers for all AU nations.
Why are people not addressing the topic proposed?
Why are they describing their countries' own problems instead of focusing on how these problems may affect the formation of the United States of Africa? And why are they recommending actions on solving these problems instead of how these problems can be solved to facilitate the formation of USA II?
and why are some going on and on about the pluses and minuses of the USA II without giving more constructive opinions?

terrible terrible terrible.
Now i am starting to doubt whether i have got the concept of position papers wrong from the beginning.

Weird.

Oh but on the other hand, I did not put my best effort into my position paper either. xD

Random Ramblings

2010-02-01T14:22:00.002+08:00

My heart skips a beat every time I think about Mr. C.
<3

Too crazily in love,
Crazy. Cucuk. Crappy. Co.

Blessings not in disguises.

2010-01-28T12:31:00.005+08:00

For some reasons, I have been sleeping at least 10 hours per day for the past week lately. or maybe 12. Like 8 or 9 in the morning, then 3 or 4 in the afternoon.

And I wonder why. I'm pretty sure it's not sleeping sickness. I have never been to anywhere near Africa. Not jetlag either. It's been a week since I came back from London, plus I was very careful in making sure that I followed KL's time 2 days before I reached Malaysia.

So that rules down to clinical depression.

Two days ago, I started pondering about the things that would cause possible depression in me. Hmm. And i don't think I could find any.

I got my A-Level grades on Monday, probably the best one could ever ask for.

I got two offers, both from schools ranked among the top four university institutions in the WORLD. Plus the offers are for Medicine, extremely competitive with the overseas quota and all that, I should be real grateful.

I'm starting my work as the 5th most important person in the Media and Communications Department of Malaysia's biggest AIDS support organisation (the umbrella organisation for all HIV/AIDS related organisations in Malaysia actually) next Tuesday.

I have two boxes of chocolate in my refrigerator.

I'm watching my DVD collection of House, season 1-4, bought more than a year ago in Hanoi. Though since then I had kept them in my DVD cupboards, and just unwrapped the plastic coverings a few days ago. I will start on 雍正皇朝 after this, yeah we got the DVDs like since I was in Form 3 ==. And they're still like brand-new.

I'm going to Singapore next week to meet up with Chong Hwa friends! And to join my first-time-ever Model United Nations conference.

I went back to Chong Hwa the day before yesterday and had a couple of happy chats with the old teachers.

I have boxes and boxes of CNY cookies at home.

Oh anddd Chinese New Year is in LESS than TWO weeks!

haha just counting my blessings.

See? What could have possibly caused clinical depression in me? Except for the fact that my Indonesian maid is leaving in a few hours' time =( And we got a new maid from Cambodia who doesn't speak any language we know. Despite the fact that we are trilingual. And reasonably fluent in two other Chinese dialects.
Oh and the other bad thing in life is that I'm having a severe cold. Running nose like mad. Started late last night.

Oh wait. Now I see. The sleep.

Must be the rhinovirus.

there are many ways to say things

2010-01-26T11:03:00.002+08:00

for example,

~~I'm a big time procrastinator.~~
I'm not exactly good with deadlines.

Sounds so much better. :)
Off to Chong Hwa!

p.s. i got the apples i wanted. And they are sweet.

back from London

2010-01-22T17:43:00.002+08:00

yay i'm back in KL! technically PJ, but well who cares right, they're about the same so. :)

I miss London Underground (reminds me of how Dumbledore told Mcgonagall he had a scar on his knee that is the shape of a map of the Unnderground) =D

and everything about London.
Even the weather.
the cups of hot chocolate in those cosy little coffee shops along the street when I was trying to warm myself up.
quick chats with random strangers on the plane, in the trains, airports, or even when sharing a table for a drink.

and not to mentionthe intense moments of map-reading when trying to figure out where the baboons I was at.

Too bad I couldn't find a group for "Travelling Solo" on Facebook so I could be a fan of it. =)

ahh and leather boots are for the win!
but leather boots with heels can kill.

I have so many things to say about London that I don't think it is fair to blog about them. Probably the same reason why Josh decided to stop blogging / dramatically reduce his blog posts. Hahaha.

The interviews are over! Got an offer from one of 'em. That makes two. hee and I'm happy. Met a lot of great awesome people over there, yeah too bad i forgot to get their contacts :( Oh and thank you Samuel for his Oyster Card. And for picking me up at Liverpool Street Station, and meeting me back there on the last day for farewell. And sorry for ffk-ing the lunch meetup with Tze Wei (u gotta blame my stupid phone on that, not my fault really). And thank you again for finishing my burger with another friend of his. Lol xD

There were both sweet memories of contentment and times of insecurity, but alas I managed to make a positively good conclusion to my trip.

As I told the man who pushed the food trolley in Stansted Express, I would certainly visit London again. This time, I'm gonna go to all these museums, take slow soothing walks through the parks, have my fair share of the Madame Tussaud's experience, and all other things I did not have time to enjoy during my last visit.
This October, I hope.

My love goes to London.
Cheers.

the Tube addict who is now SO ready to backpack across Europe,

'Co.

Mooooooooo

2010-01-17T02:03:00.002+08:00

I am happy. and excited,
and happy. and excited.
and happy. and excited.

But I bet the excitement and happiness will wear off very soon after 14 hours in the plane.

Still.
I am happy.
And excited.

Good nights. =)

康桥

2010-01-15T16:30:00.017+08:00

轻轻的我走了，
正如我轻轻的来；
我轻轻的招手，
作别西天的云彩。

那河畔的金柳，
是夕阳中的新娘；
波光里的艳影，
在我的心头荡漾。

软泥上的青荇，
油油的在水底招摇；
在康河的柔波里，
我甘心做一条水草！

那榆荫下的一潭，
不是清泉,是天上虹,
揉碎在浮藻间，
沉淀着彩虹似的梦。

寻梦？撑一支长蒿，
向青草更青处漫溯，
满载一船星辉，
在星辉斑斓里放歌。

但我不能放歌，
悄悄是别离的笙箫；
夏虫也为我沉默，
沉默是今晚的康桥！

悄悄的我走了，
正如我悄悄的来；
我挥一挥衣袖，
不带走一片云彩。

-- 徐志摩《再别康桥》

我不知道有多少人和我一样，读了那么多年的《再别康桥》，还都不知道其实 “康桥” 指的就是 Cambridge. 就位于剑桥大学那个跨过 River Cam 的桥。

刚才在图书馆随手拿起一本描述剑桥大学的纪念特辑时，我才发现的。发现后我重复的读了这首诗最少七次，每一次瞄过一行字，心里就起了一种新的体会，一种莫名的感动。也许这就是一首好诗的功力吧！试问有多少的莘莘学子曾经抱负着理想到那里寻梦？站在那伟大的建筑物前你才会发现自己的渺小。就算你做了个多轰天的新发现，和历史上的先师们比起来你不过还是那么个小点，其中一个组成现在这条线的小点。

诗很小就读过了，好像还唱过。六、七岁那样。记得九、十岁时表哥还常拿那句“悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来。。”逗我（那时我们好像在玩追追，还是捉迷藏）。

一直以来欣赏徐志摩很久了，虽然很抱歉的没读过他多少诗。大家自己感受一下当时他写这首诗的意境吧。那种对母校的眷恋与感恩。

我的华语退步了。

再写下去反而会把对诗的体会拉下一个阶段，侮辱了作者。
就让沉默再次成为今天的康桥吧。

看来这又是这个假期的其中一个目标了。把华文搞好：）

康桥，

总有一天
我也会站到你上面
找到自己的梦想的 =)

十月。

something that should have been on Plurk

2010-01-14T16:28:00.002+08:00

Oyico says Lol i was looking at my engaged status on Facebook and I suddenly became very happy. couldn't stop smiling =)))

Sunday I heard some great CNY songs..

2010-01-14T15:03:00.000+08:00

and now I'm all very D-excited about Chinese New Year already =DDD

Ah. And adding to this, ma has been making all kinds of CNY cookies since last week :) I (Or we, though I contributed the most) finished a box of peanut cookies in about three days. =D Now the Chocolate-chip-plus-macadamia-nuts cookies. They were just fresh out of the oven yesterday afternoon, and now with only half a box left.

Mesa issa blessed.

baaaaaaaaa

2010-01-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

bboooooooooooooon.

Good night.

I just watched Star Wars I.

Qui-gon died.
(note: I finally found out who's Qui-gon LOL)

Dunno what prompted me to watch Star Wars. I was running out of movies and I badly needed a night of it to relax.

Yeah. Gotta write a few emails and reply all the phone messages tomorrow.

geeneeeeyoooooplaakkk.

I watched 2 Harry Potter movies over the weekend too. They are the only ones I own =(

I'm not ready to start my NTU MUN research.
'cause yeahh i'm SO READY to board my plane to London. Can you believe this will be the FIRST TIME EVER i'm going to fly ALONE??????? =DDDDDD *swallowed by excitement*
Speaking of that, I think I should start packing :) Going back Sunway tomorrow too.
Oh and me return flight got delayed =( Might reach KL around 2am. Ah what to do then. And gonna spend a long time stranded at the airport before I depart from London too. 4am they said. Ahh.

Hee. I love Jar Jar Binks.
I'm reluctant to watch Star Wars 2 or 3 (not a big fan of Star Wars so nah I just don't remember which is which) cuz I remember there was a very sad part about Anakin =((

But so far... yays Mesa Jar Jar Binks
Wesa luvin lifey <3
Mesa wanting tooda goeey sulippeen :D

Ah what a failure.
But never mind, me still lovey Mesa Jar Jar Binks =D

C

2010-01-07T18:36:00.000+08:00

for Coyin!

It's the prettiest alphabet of all. =)

Shall write in details when everything's confirmed.

I neeeeeeeeed to get the grades.

Guess what?

2010-01-05T00:49:00.000+08:00

I'm DONE.

No more "Loves Bio, 'Co."

No more "Loves Essays, 'Co."

No more nonsense work to make me all stressed up.

Great job.

I submitted all six applications =D Kinda worried as I did not apply for TOEFL waiver, and I did not take TOEFL / IELTS. Uhhhh give me a few more days to think about it, I might sign up for IELTS la. Otherwise haha close one eye la. Let's hope those English people will work things out for me. Ahah.

Now the most important thing:
I'm PHYSICALLY and MENTALLY prepared for the start of my gap year!
New year resolution: I wanna live as though there are 25 hours in a day!

To be more specific, I shall appreciate and use my time wisely. I want to do meaningful things that every night before I sleep I can think back and feel proud of myself. And if I were to write down the things I have done in a day in this stupid blog of mine, I would feel proud doing so.

Mr. C should be replying anytime soon!
I dunno what to think of it. Aaaahhhh.

I miss Sunway!!! I needa go back there soooooon. I miss the library. I need to read booooks.

Streamyx's been a pain in the a** today. Luckily it did not cause any major problems.

I missss my college friends! I want a gathering asap. =D Wish results day can come sooner so we can all meet up! But oh wait, nonono. i would rather not have that day coming sooner.

i wanna go cinema watch movies!

haha that was very random. I actually miss pyramid. and MEDAN. Ah. The tomyam tanghun. =D yays

Been checking out London lately. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE google maps with Street View. Damn cool man. You can actually see what the streets are like. I love my hotel already.

Oh speaking of my hotel. I wanna thank this guy so so so much for being so kind-hearted and helpful and wonderfully nice =D Any girl who has him as her boyfriend is totally blessed. haha shall write more about him when I see him in London. He's the first person to whom I say "See you in London!" wah. and seriously one you know!!!! =D geez. Isn't life good?

Yay. So I'm gonna do some more cool things tomorrow, which I shall not say more about them here. Wish I will have a fruitful start to my gap year!

ahh.

2010-01-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

The feeling of having-nothing-to-do-but-to-study-or-finish-my-essays-or-practise-my-piano-but-doing-any-of-these-things-make-me-feel-like-i'm-insulting-my-holidays is irritating.

Enough said.

Science & Engineering

2010-01-02T11:22:00.001+08:00

If you are one of those (e.g. ME) who are still not very sure whether you prefer engineering or science, I found this very enlightening article on this page.

Look for “Science and Engineering”.

It gives you an idea of the differences between what a scientist does and what an engineer does, regardless of how small the difference actually is.

I am now pretty sure of what I want already. I don’t mind doing a little engineering once in a while, I love making models and applying theories in my inventions, but definitely, not spending a whole life on it.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-01T14:04:00.003+08:00

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so many things to do yet so little time

what a happy new year.

next week will be SO MUCH better i know.

I'll live this week to live the next week.

2010.

what a start.

Wantan mee

2009-12-31T15:14:00.003+08:00

I think the wantan mee near my house is ~~good~~ simply delicious.

It should be a sin
if you are a non-Muslim and have not tried it before.

I love it.

Full stop.

What happened today

2009-12-29T19:50:00.001+08:00

Dear bloggie,

Today I helped Ms. Nesa with getting the new A-Levels T-shirts. I pushed a trolley from the 3rd Floor to Ground Floor using the lift. In the lift, I banged the trolley against the walls with such sheer force for three times straight that I was surprised when the lift did not start free-falling.

Life is full of surprises.

Love,

Co.

I

2009-12-27T20:17:00.002+08:00

shall be good today and work hard.

*..~LiFe'S w0nDeRfUl~..*